Dusting off the cobwebs

That creaking noise? It’s the sound of me walking up the stairs to this rickety old blog.

I just  have one small update to share: I have a broken boob.

Looking back, it’s hard to believe that it was almost a year ago that I started consultations for the brachioplasty/mastopexy/augmentation. But it has been that long, and I had surgery a full six months ago. Unbelievable!

One boob is great. The other feels like it’s made of cement and aches all the time. Naked, I look ridiculously lop-sided and weird. Thankfully it’s disguised in clothing.

So I saw my surgeon yesterday and after some pharmaceutical attempts didn’t work, I’m going back in for surgery so that he can fix my capsular contracture. While I’m under, he’s going to revise my left arm as well.

I can’t believe I’m having to do this again, but whatever. Last time was horrible. I’m hoping this is a quick little fixer-upper.

December 10th. The very moment I finish teaching my last class of the semester.

And now I’m backing down these rickety old stairs again. See ya when I see ya!

18 months

Today marks 18 months since my RNY. Somehow in my mind, I imagined weighing 155 on this day. I’m at 165, and that’s fine. That’s 20 pounds over “normal,” and that too is fine. It’s all good. It will come off or it won’t. And that’s fine.

But let’s be honest about why those twenty extra pounds are still here–food. End of story!

So a rundown of life as of now. Three major things:

  • I got a fabulous new bike! My Trek 7.2 was awesome, but she didn’t quite cut the mustard for rides upwards of 50 miles. It was time for a road bike. Behold the Trek 4.7 WSD! There is one word to describe her: smooth.

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  • I’m having some anxiety about the upcoming Fall semester. I passed my first-year review in the PhD program, but this year is going to be ridiculously difficult. Not only will I finish my full-time coursework, but I’ll also have to teach for my fellowship funding. That’s no problem, except that I already work full-time. It pans out like this: take 3 classes, teach 2 classes, teach 2 classes as part of my regular job, plus all the other duties of my regular job. That’s a heck of a lot. So much, in fact, that my counselor said I should take a leave of absence from work. And that she’d be willing to write a letter stating that its “medically necessary” for my mental health. I’m not sure I’d go that far, but she’s the expert. I’ll talk with my boss in 2 weeks to work out my fall schedule. I’m hoping to cut down to about 20 hours per week, and make up the rest with vacation time. Fortunately, I have enough saved up to account for the fall semester at part-time. We’ll see!
  • As far as post-surgical healing, I’m doing great! I don’t look very different from the pictures I posted, except that my abdomen is a much less swollen. Everything feels good!

And that just about covers everything in my world. Where on earth did summer go?!

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Earth to Meghan

It’s time for one of those periodic check-ins that keep me grounded, healthy, and engaged with my overall wellness. It’s difficult to keep close tabs on all of this during hectic mid-semester rushes with my coursework, but this summer I’m doing an independent study and an online course, so it’s a bit easier to spend time thinking about my health & wellness.

So here are the areas I’ll be thinking through and addressing:

  • Counseling: is it time to stop? do I keep going? I started counseling right before surgery simply because it’s recommended for us. My appointments went from every week, to bi-weekly, and now they’re every 4 weeks or so. I don’t mind going, it doesn’t hurt, it’s just one more thing to keep track of. My sense is that it’s better to keep going even if I don’t think I need it. When I don’t have anything to talk about weight/body wise, I still get lots of great advice when it comes to PhD work (since my psychologist has been there, done that!) and so forth. So I’ll continue through summer, re-evaluate before things get busy for me again this fall.
  • Nutrition: I need to do some serious work on this front. Sure, I’d like to lose those last twenty pounds so I can be officially “normal” at 145 pounds. Today I’m back at 165 and this is where my body seems to want to stay! I’m not as worried about the numbers now (since I’m healthy and strong and I feel good), but I do want to pay attention to how well I’m nourishing my body. Based on the bible study at work, I’ve been learning more about the food pyramid and we’re all trying to do better as far as that goes. So I definitely need waaaay more vegetables, more fruit, and less processed crap. I will be working on reaching a balance I can live with throughout the summer, and then working off those meal ideas throughout the fall when I’m too busy to pay attention.
  • Exercise: I’ve done okay on this, but I’m down for the count right now after surgery. Beginning June 3rd after my tapes are off, I’m committing to 5 days per week in the gym, consisting of a mix of spinning, weight lifting, yoga, and whatever else I feel like. Then on Saturdays I’ll pick back up with the bike trail. It’s a privilege to be able to workout 6 days a week, and I don’t want to waste the opportunity while I have the time!
  • Supplements: I’m currently re-evaluating my supplement regiment based on what other long-term post-ops are recommending. I haven’t had many of the blood tests most people get… my surgeon only checks the CMP/CBC/and B12. I’ll be researching this and I’ll report on what I decide!
  • Relationships: It’s important to me that I make time this summer to touch base with some of my friends, my mentor (an old boss), go visit my sister in Jacksonville, etc. I don’t have time for this stuff during semesters, so I want to do it while I can!
  • Plastics: Depending on how my arms heal and how they look once swelling is done, I’ll make a decision about what I want to do next. I thought a thigh lift made sense for the next thing before we have kids, and I still think that’s the plan. But we’ll see how the arms turn out before I decide if I want to jump right in or find another surgeon, that kind of thing. Either way, I’ll want to have a decision made by the end of August so that if I’m doing it, it’s booked for December break. Just one more thing on my mind that I’d like to have resolved this summer!

So that’s where I am and what I’m working on. I’ll be focusing on each “pillar” of my health, reporting back here, and asking for any feedback you might have! In the meantime, I’m researching my little heart out! 🙂

I’ve never started a day like this before…

So. We all have our morning routines. Mine has never before included a phone call to my surgeon to get the serial numbers for my boobs. So that I can buy an extended warranty for them.

Ha!

My boobs have serial numbers, can you believe that? My boobs have a warranty, can you believe that?!

As for pictures, I’m hesitating. Why? Because I can’t wear a real bra and I have to tube-boob effect of a sports bra going on and, well, that’s just not the look I’m going for in the Big Reveal. 🙂 But I can share this picture from the weekend… you can’t see much, except that my boobs are not humongous. They look proportional and not at all “whoa fake boobs!”

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(Please try to ignore my crazy hair. Without use of my arms, Lee has been in charge of the ‘do.)

I had my first lymphatic drainage massage last night and… wow. I think I peed like eight gallons of fluid out afterwards. I can tell a different on my underarm area, and my boobs feel more like boobs and less like basketballs because they’re not so darned swollen. I can’t wait until the next lymphatic drainage next week!

And then following week, tapes come off! And I can go BACK TO THE GYM!! I cannot even tell you how bad I miss exercising. I never thought I’d say that, but I feel like a lump of flubber. I want to work this body out dangit! Two weeks!

Ta Da!

Officially DONE!

Surgery is over, the fill up is over, batwings are gone, and boobs are here to stay!

I am happy to report that I was able to avoid my nightmare outcome scenario:

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Although that’s pretty much how I feel at the moment. I know I need to share the whole story of surgery, what happenend exactly, what I want someone having the same procedures to know, etc.

But as for right now, all I can say is that I’m thrilled it’s a done deal!

I ended up getting 370 cc’s on one side and 380 cc’s on the other… that’s way bigger than what I thought about early on. I started with 200, then went into surgery deciding between 325-350-375.  I got the implants that are fillable between 325 and 390 so I could decide after the lift was done.

On my chest, they FEEL ginormous. My chest feels like there’s eighty pounds of boob stuck there. But when I look in the mirror, they don’t look abnormally big AT ALL. Like my normal self. I was told they’ll reduce 10-2o% in size too since there’s still swelling going on.

I’ll update with pics as soon as I don’t look like death warmed over! 🙂

And the best part? No old lady tissue-paper boob slack! Wahoo!

Quickies

A few things:

  • Edited: the plastic surgeon’s nurse called, and we’re still trying to figure out prescriptions. This is kind of a pain!
  • I’m going to be a lab rat! The psychology department at my university (the one where I go to school, not the one where I work) is studying bariatric patients. I’m a part of the study. I go to my first group session tomorrow afternoon and I’ll be sure to fill you in! They’re studying us in terms of body image and all that, so it should be interesting. I hope I can stay in the study, but with surgery coming up I may not be able to make all the group sessions. We’ll see.
  • My body is da bomb. I’ve been eating like a pig and managed to lose 2 pounds this week with no workouts. I know this is a one-time reprieve. But still, I stepped on the scale this morning expecting a huge uptick and was pleasantly surprised! Now back to the gym. If I try really really hard I might make my goal of 155 on surgery day (that’s be 6 pounds in two weeks… not impossible!)

Until next time!